lazy Wednesday

I woke up really early today. (at least for me) I don’t know why I did it. I wasn’t done sleeping. In fact, I was really tired, and really comfortable in my bed. I’m glad that I got out of bed though. My mom had left for an appointment so I had a relaxing cup of coffee by myself and started my day off calmly. I went to Starbucks with Michelle and Amanda. I love coffee. Then we went shoe shopping and stopped at Home Goods, where I dropped off an application. Things have been really good lately. Things seem to be coming together. Which is a much needed change for me after this past year. I appreciate weeks like this as much as I can, but it’s hard for me to remind myself that things wont stay good forever. That scares me. I want things to be good for as long as they can, and I want to enjoy it! I don't want t think about how it’s not going to last. So I’m working on enjoying the present. And looking forward without fear. The future is something that I should be excited about! Actually, it reminds me of something I was taught when  I was learning to drive. If your car starts to spin out or you start to loose control, look at where you want to go. It’s guaranteed that if you look at the tree that you DON’T want to hit, you’re going to hit it. Or if you look at the oncoming cars obnoxious headlights, you’re going to start to gravitate towards them. Keep yourself focused on what you want to happen, envision yourself succeeding and your mind will take steps to getting there without you even recognizing it. I also think that to do that, you need a little faith with you at all times. All of that being said, I’m very much looking forward to this upcoming year. Things are lookin’ good.